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Mood: numb. dazed and confused. happy; because happy is what happens when all your dreams come true, isn't it?
Right now i want... to remember why i was starting to call cali home.

i went home for easter. it's just so easy to say. i'm sure when i wake up more, i'll be able to describe my trip more... sucinctly. i came to realize that the time to go home was either within the first 3 weeks of me coming out here, or in another 3 months. i wasn't prepared. i'm like a patient leaving rehab too early and regressing. i was high on familiarity, friends, people, wonderful food, beautiful architecture. hell, i even thanked god for traffic on I-275. i didn't sleep much, not for lack of exhaustion. my cat was rescued. he's flying west on wednesday, which i'm really really happy about. he's being pampered his last days in michigan.

... kiss me too fiercely, hold me too tight, i need help believing you're with me tonight.... my wildest dreamings could not forsee lying beside you, with you wanting me... and just for this moment, as long as you're mine, i've lost all resistence, and crossed some borderline.... i'll make every last moment last, as long as you're mine....

i feel like i've joined a club; made up only of people who have uprooted their lives and then had to come back. and see everyone who doesn't know what that means.

... and know i'll be here, holding you.... as long as you're mine....

there is much more to write. i just need to feel less like the living dead before i can actually write it. i need to prove to myself that california actually has food that doesn't taste like cardboard. my first few bites back in ann arbor my taste buds woke up from west-coast-hibernation and had the best weekend they've ever had. they need to feel better about california, or they might protest and move back to the midwest.