Background Noise: law and order
Last website visited: ?
Mood: sick, panicked...
Right now i want... to know tobey is actually safe

i haven't talked to him in a little over a week... since graduation, when he told me he had decided to go to julliard.

... he just told me he was in an accident this weekend. broke several ribs and had a concussion. he's been in the hospital the past few days.

oh my god does that scare me... to know he's hurt and so far away.... if i wasn't already sick to my stomach i would be. oh no... i'm going to throw up again.... brb.

i miss home so much. i miss my friends more. i was flipping out a bit earlier, i've been ill all day, steve is going to be here soon, i'm working a lot, not sure about playing softball tomorrow... and i looked at who i could call here in town. and i came up with 2; 2 people i felt comfortable calling if it wasn't an emergency. 2. and neither answered their phones. not that i blame them, i'm pretty sure i know why on both counts, but that's not entirely the point. here i am worrying about what it will be like to have a roommate, worrying about my friends so far away, and at the same time, worrying that i'm so alone out here.

::sigh:: i guess i just don't know what i want.

besides sleep, that is. and to stop throwing up. that would be nice.