Background Noise: something on tv
Last website visited: nytimes
Mood: unsure
Right now i want... more than i can have

i am usually concerned with how others perceive me and my actions. i often push the boundaries of my friends, and i can be the source of embarrasment and alarm. i've been known to offend, i've been known to have little tact. i've been known to question my surroundings and the people in my life, and my curiosity has gotten the best of me more than i'd care to admit.

i want to know, and i want to understand.

::sigh::

i'm going to try this again, the above isn't working so well.

i wonder why i care so much. i wonder why it is that ... what is upsetting me, is. i wonder why the lack of reciprocation annoys me as much as it does.

and i worry that i'm falling into the same mistakes i've made before.

... sorry, that was stupidly cryptic. i'm still floundering around in search of my actual reactions. i know i am more offended than i should be, and i seem to care more than i thought i did. i am questioning many things simultaneously, which makes separating them and discussing them with the larger world difficult.

on the lighter front, i made helena watch bill and ted's excellent adventure this afternoon for the first time :)

excellent.