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today was filled with good and bad news. good first:

:) i got bunches of gerbera daisies at the farmers market at santana row on sale for $5.

i also found out (after much searching and annoyance) that only my battery (on my car) was dead, that the alternator was fine, and i could get out of this trip to the mechanics for little over $100. ok, so it isn't the best news, but it falls under the category of minor victory.

ok, now the not good news.

today, not only did i find out that the mother of 2 of my friends from high school had been killed in a car accident, i had to tell someone about it. over the phone. i learned that while i may be able to be the strong one, the comforting one, in person... i don't have the capacity to deal with... this... over the phone.

maybe i'm just still too numb from this week's events to fully comprehend what happened. lord knows i don't have the best track record for dealing with the death of friends. still, i'm older than i was the last time someone i knew passed away; i suppose i had been hoping that age bred maturity. i guess not. well, at least not in this area of life.

all in all, it's been a long day, caping off an even longer week. and really... it's been a week where i truly didn't want to have to be social, or helpful, or even around people much. it was also a week where i was called on to be social, and helpful, and around people a lot. i'm just so tired. not just physically, but, all of me... i want to be home, in my bed. i want to sleep.

sometimes sleep is too much to ask.