Background Noise: some commercial
Last website visited: television without pity
Mood: tired, anti-social
Right now i want... good question

what do i want right now? i want my head to stop hurting long enough to complete a thought. i want something nice and light and undefinable for dinner. i want company, preferably the kind that can make me laugh and make me comfortable, and at the same time, i want to be alone.

Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself, -- Walt Whitman, Song of Myself

i am feeling very anti-social right now. i am tired to an extent that requires new definition. i am filled with a sense of unease, unrest. part of me knows that this is just another symptom of this damn concussion that doesn't seem to want to go away (yes, it's only been a week, but i'm ready for it to be gone). but, knowing and feeling are two very different things.

i'm tempted to go to that midnight showing of Super Troopers just because i know it will make me laugh. though, that laughter comes with a price whenever Super Troopers is involved. sadly, as much as i like the movie, it is intrinsically tied to the ex, which usually produces memories i'd rather avoid. i'm pretty much blaming watching the Super Troopers dvd the other night to the nightmares that have been keeping me awake.

and the bitch of it all? today started well, better than any other morning the past week. i was basically feeling normal, i was getting stuff done (though i was a bit spacey), and then... at lunch... everything came crashing down. only i didn't leave work then, like i should have. oh no, that would have been the smart thing to do. i stayed for the better part of the next five hours.

... maybe more sleep will help....