Background Noise: my favorite things, coltrane
Last website visited: news rounds
Mood: suddenly not so good.
Right now i want... a hug.

last night i had a nightmare: the ex and the girl made it to san francisco, and they were staying with grandma ann and her son; her with him instead of me. and i can see robert looking at the ex, staring right though him, surprised to see this other girl on his arm, asking what happened with me, asking where i was. cut to the next part: me, at the office, today, working, i get a phone call from the front desk: the ex is here, downstairs, wants to see me. and i woke up in a panic. i almost couldn't get back to sleep, my heart was racing so fast.

guess what: i was right. they got here last night, they are staying with grandma ann and robert; and i am petrified he is going to show up.

i suppose the best part about being here in california was knowing that he was thousands of miles away; that i didn't have to worry about running into him. now, i'm fairly sure he won't turn up... but just the fact that he could... and with her ::shudder:: scares the crap out of me.

and here i thought i had grown up and was over it. guess not... damnit.

what a great way to start the week.... :-P