Background Noise: heart we will forget him
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Mood: hmmm
Right now i want... my meeting at 4 to be over and a success (cross your fingers)

... so, earlier this week i ran across a livejournal entry by a bright but frustrated young woman who worked really hard in school and her job to please her father who never supported or encouraged her. she even suggested getting married just so she could not invite him to the wedding.

now, i was not exactly in the best mood when i read this post, and i was frustrated by the idea that this talented college student was completely blinded by her emotions towards one man (in this case, her father). so i posted the following comment (lecture, whatever):

You are obviously a smart, talented, and driven young woman; you work so hard for your father's validation and are crushed when he doesn't give it. not to be harsh but i have to tell you: what you are looking for from him he can't give you.

but you don't need his validation. you shouldn't be working as hard as you are for him, so his life is easier, so he will be proud.

work hard for yourself. finish college early because it's what you want; learn as much as you can for your own benefit; do everything to the best of your abilities and at the end of the day realize how much you have accomplished and be proud of yourself. marry if you are in love with a man you want to spend the rest of your life with, then don't invite your father if you must, but get married for the right reasons.

thank your father for his money and for giving you a reason to fight as hard as you have, and then politely tell him to shove it; bitterness and anger in this case only hurt you, and your future is too bright to be clouded by that kind of stress.

good luck! i know you'll land on your feet.

... anyways, to get to the point, i just reread my comment because she asked who i was and how i came to give her such "fabulous advice." the problem is, i'm not sure if i was really advising her, or myself. also, i'm a bit troubled by my writing voice -- i realize i was trying to write anonymously, but, i don't sound like me. granted, this hasn't been the best week, but since i've been writing in this blog i've come to be able to identify what i've written... and... this isn't me. at least, not me now.

i'm babbling; i just wanted to mention this here so i could ponder it more later.

now: more meeting prep! cross your fingers for me, this is a big one :)