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Right now i want...

Today i am searching for theKetchup.

I don't know about anyone else, but my mother always has a huge bottle of ketchup in our refrigerator. It's big. It's red. At home i normally reached for it at least once a day.

I'd walk over to the fridge, absentmindedly, thinking about something else, reach in for theKetchup... and it wouldn't be there. I would swear on a stack of bibles that there was no more ketchup?! how can that be? there's always ketchup. Then, right when i was about to tear into whatever sibling was sitting at the table with a giant glob of the sweet red stuff, my mom would shake her head, walk up behind me, and grab the big red bottle right in front of my face.

i never saw it.

there were times i would actually move items around, crouch down and initiate a full out search for the missing Ketchup - like it was a missing buddy taken as a POW in the marshes of Vietnam. And it would always be right in front of my face.

Right where i knew it would be.

One saturday my dad actually told me to open the fridge with my eyes closed and reach in where i thought theKetchup was. Annoyingly enough, i found it that time. When i wasn't looking. Where it was obvious. Where i should have been able to see it immediately without a second thought.

What does this have to do with the here and now? Well, unlike my fabulous mother, i don't ever remember to actually buy ketchup, so it is never in my fridge, which is probably one of the reasons i don't eat those frozen chicken patties from Costco.

I think it also means there is an opening for a new theKetchup - in the form of bugs at work.

Oh goody.

You'd think i'd have grown out of my search for theKetchup by now. Apparently my brain, being smarter than i am, has decided that i still need to be taught a lesson. Probably something about focus and patience. I hate it when my brain makes a point like that. so annoying.

But regardless, once again, theKetchup has been reassigned: to a particularly annoying, particularly (i think) obvious, particularly simple bug with the project i'm working on.

I swear what i need to find is right in front of my face.... Wish me luck finding it.

oh, if you hear random rantings coming from my office today, don't mind me; i'll just be tearing apart the marshes of final cut looking for my missing buddy.

*ok, so actually when i went to start this post Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk was playing... and then i realized that's been playing the last few times i've blogged, so either it's just that inspiring or i'm in a music rut. so i went searching through my itunes library to find something else. thanks, liz phair!