Caramel in Carmel
Background Noise: Eine Kleine Nachtmusik
Last Visited:Whine & Dine
Random Thought: I should have stayed in one of those little cottages on the ocean.
Mood: amazingly annoyed.
So, what i've written below is unprofessional and inappropriate. I can't go as far as saying it is uncalled for, however. I really wish i could but i can't.
As unprofessional as my little rant is, though, it would be much much worse if i had said this to the people i work with. I just have to face facts sometimes that i cannot be the diplomat i need to be when i'm this angry. Vogue must have been right about my carrying too much rage around; it's not healthy for me or the people i work with. That doesn't mean i shouldn't speak up, just that i have to remember not to be so selfish when i do.
Everyone around me is stressed out; that i understand. But their stress doesn't mitigate their horrible behavior, especially towards those who are trying to help them. And honestly, if this continues, i'm not sure i want to help them at all. Sad, but true.
The worst thing as far as i'm concerned is that i will work my ass off if i believe in something; i want to help produce the best possible end product. These people are killing my desire to help them and at that point i just don't care anymore. Then i'm not just sad, i'm dangerous; and i can't stay in a situation this stressfull if i no longer believe i can help. My time is too valuable.
That being said, here's my rant. Read it or don't; i don't think it actually matters anymore.
[Vent] The excpetion was not draconian, it was necessary. And it was never intended to be a forever thing, more of a data-collecting and awareness-spreading thing. And for the record, i most certainly did know what i was doing when i put it in - and for the record, i was the one who found the problem in the first place. Not only did i find the problem, i fixed 99% of it. The exceptions were put in in case there was an additional 1% out there we couldn't find. Guess what. You found it. Congrats. But instead of saying "oh my gosh, this is a major problem with an assumption i made" you go behind my back to the people who reviewed my check in and say what i did was idiotic, draconian, and i really didn't know what i was talking about. Riiiiight. 'Cause i was the one who fucked up your work (excuse my language). Lady, this was and is a design flaw - one that you and several others have been trying to cover up or ignore i can't tell which. So don't you dare go behind my back and try to make it sound like this little girl shouldn't be poking her nose in other people's business - i'm saving your ass right now, please at least try to be grateful. Or at least appreciative. And to the idiots who reviewed the bugs saying the problem was the exception and not the fact that we were failing in a place we should never ever ever ever ever fail in, i suggest you read that bug again. go on, i'm more than happy to wait. Actually, i'm more than happy to have you send that bug to the person who should actually fix it - i agree, that beyond what i already did, that person isn't me. I did my part - the exception is now an assert. I'm ok with that, we weren't getting anything useful out of the stack traces anyways. But please, i'm helping you here - at least say thank you. Hell, i'll settle for a little credit. I haven't asked for much, please... at least give me credit and stop abusing my reputation because i found a problem with your work. [/Vent]
ETA: My IRL-Boss is awesome; he agreed that what happened was crap and regardless of stress levels shouldn't happen again - that i'm not out of line being annoyed. And really? That's all i needed to hear. Thanks :)
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Last Visited:Whine & Dine
Random Thought: I should have stayed in one of those little cottages on the ocean.
Mood: amazingly annoyed.
So, what i've written below is unprofessional and inappropriate. I can't go as far as saying it is uncalled for, however. I really wish i could but i can't.
As unprofessional as my little rant is, though, it would be much much worse if i had said this to the people i work with. I just have to face facts sometimes that i cannot be the diplomat i need to be when i'm this angry. Vogue must have been right about my carrying too much rage around; it's not healthy for me or the people i work with. That doesn't mean i shouldn't speak up, just that i have to remember not to be so selfish when i do.
Everyone around me is stressed out; that i understand. But their stress doesn't mitigate their horrible behavior, especially towards those who are trying to help them. And honestly, if this continues, i'm not sure i want to help them at all. Sad, but true.
The worst thing as far as i'm concerned is that i will work my ass off if i believe in something; i want to help produce the best possible end product. These people are killing my desire to help them and at that point i just don't care anymore. Then i'm not just sad, i'm dangerous; and i can't stay in a situation this stressfull if i no longer believe i can help. My time is too valuable.
That being said, here's my rant. Read it or don't; i don't think it actually matters anymore.
[Vent] The excpetion was not draconian, it was necessary. And it was never intended to be a forever thing, more of a data-collecting and awareness-spreading thing. And for the record, i most certainly did know what i was doing when i put it in - and for the record, i was the one who found the problem in the first place. Not only did i find the problem, i fixed 99% of it. The exceptions were put in in case there was an additional 1% out there we couldn't find. Guess what. You found it. Congrats. But instead of saying "oh my gosh, this is a major problem with an assumption i made" you go behind my back to the people who reviewed my check in and say what i did was idiotic, draconian, and i really didn't know what i was talking about. Riiiiight. 'Cause i was the one who fucked up your work (excuse my language). Lady, this was and is a design flaw - one that you and several others have been trying to cover up or ignore i can't tell which. So don't you dare go behind my back and try to make it sound like this little girl shouldn't be poking her nose in other people's business - i'm saving your ass right now, please at least try to be grateful. Or at least appreciative. And to the idiots who reviewed the bugs saying the problem was the exception and not the fact that we were failing in a place we should never ever ever ever ever fail in, i suggest you read that bug again. go on, i'm more than happy to wait. Actually, i'm more than happy to have you send that bug to the person who should actually fix it - i agree, that beyond what i already did, that person isn't me. I did my part - the exception is now an assert. I'm ok with that, we weren't getting anything useful out of the stack traces anyways. But please, i'm helping you here - at least say thank you. Hell, i'll settle for a little credit. I haven't asked for much, please... at least give me credit and stop abusing my reputation because i found a problem with your work. [/Vent]
ETA: My IRL-Boss is awesome; he agreed that what happened was crap and regardless of stress levels shouldn't happen again - that i'm not out of line being annoyed. And really? That's all i needed to hear. Thanks :)
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