Social Efforts

Background Noise: the pseudo-challenging melodies of starbucks background music
Last Visited: the blog rounds
Random Thought: well, i was right about coming to starbucks with my laptop, but blissfully wrong about working while here... so far.
Mood: it's sunday and i don't have to go to work tomorrow. woa, man.

Ok. I've been sitting at this table (yes, starbucks) for the last 20 minutes, and i'd managed to write a quite maudalin post about... well, i'm not quite sure if it had a point. And, since you aren't reading that post right now, you can probably figure out that i deleted it. I've been trying to not give in to what could be a charmingly romantic depression... i simply don't have the concentration at the moment for the depth that that mood requires. So i wrote out my pseudo-complaints about - get this - too much social interaction (that's new for the bay area, huh?) then with a stroke deleted them all. And you know what? i'm feeling much better about yesterday because of that purging.

So now I'm chatting on aim and trying to figure out what - if anything - i'm going to do with my sunday. The thing is, i'm just not feeling any urgency about figuring out my plans because i keep reminding myself of the delicious fact that i don't have to go into work tomorrow, so i'm not bound by any bedtime constraints or chore requirements that, knowing me, i'll talk myself out of anyways.



I could go to target to see if i actually want to pick up the large version of that rug for my living room, go shopping for a nice pair of dark jeans for "what are you talking about, this are my nice pants" type outings, i could actually read the books i picked up at borders the other nice, or see a movie again - or see a movie again and drag people with me - or just bum around starbucks for a couple of hours and go home which, really, isn't a bad plan at all.

I've also been debating whether or not to put in the effort to give a potential new friend a call. Stepping back and looking at my behavior objectively, i find it hilarious that i always worry about making that first phone call to a new person. After that (as many people will attest) i really have no compunction about calling or dropping by or im'ing or communicating in general - it's just that first one-on-one interaction that i worry about. I'll sit around and debate whether the new person is worth the effort, whether i really want or need a new actual friend as opposed to an aquaintance (real or glorified), whether i'm just worried about my embarassment if it turns out they actually don't want to waste their time with me. But eventually the pride and the vanity and the fear melt away and i make the call and say 'hi'. Hopefully things will work out and i'll actually be able to say that i have friends around here that don't work with me.

...Though i have to admit, sometimes i wish life was like an Austen novel, and introductions were done for you. But then again, that's just an oversimplification that has never been anyone's reality, so who am i kidding?

Ok. Well, as much as i'd like to stay here just enjoying being on a computer without actual work involoved, i didn't bring a power cord, so i have to leave. Which is fine - it's a beautiful day, I should at least do something with it. Oh, before i forget, here are a few tidbits i'd like to remind myself of (feel free to ignore):

• MUSKET's Pippin is this weekend, and my brother is going. Find out how it was, I -> Curious


• Get actual numbers that work for coworkers instead of being forced to knock on their doors.


• Pick up for-curly-hair shampoo, etc.


• Vevet Blazer?


• Check shipping from Zappos... monday or tuesday? ETA: Fedex rocks


• Find a picture of Justing Bodary to see if Kathy is actually right about him looking like the new Mr. Darcy; my memory might be playing tricks on me.


• Figure out what i'm doing for thanksgiving!


• Continue to plan Peak District trip


• If you could move for a year, where would it be to?

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